Do I make a difference?

purpose2It’s easy to feel purposeful when you are doing big things, important things, charitable things…going on a foreign missions trip, delivering holiday food baskets to the needy, volunteering as a big brother/big sister….but what about during the everyday tasks? It’s hard to feel important while folding laundry, shoveling snow, and loading the dishwasher. Some days go by when the only people I spoke to were my children, what impact do I have on those days?  Am I making an impact? Am I helping the community?  What’s my purpose?  I volunteer at my children’s charter school and our church when I can, but to be honest I don’t have much free time during this phase of life. Not only being a stay-at-home mom and a homeschooler, but an oilfield wife on top of that  just doesn’t leave much time for anything else.  Half of the time I’m trying to be both mom and dad (when my husband is at work) – –  along with my duties of teacher, chauffeur, gardener, chef, secretary,  and housekeeper. I don’t have much time for myself, let alone to give to anyone outside of our home.  So while I may not be doing glamorous things, I stay busy nonetheless.  If I can’t be out volunteering at soup kitchens,  or helping orphans, can I still make a difference?  I think the answer is yes.   Absolutely.  I may not always feel important but the best thing I can do for the world and its future is to raise good citizens.  My kids take up 99% of my time, and that’s OK. They should be my focus right now.  It won’t be this way forever, in fact before I know it they will be grown and gone. So I shouldn’t feel guilty about not doing enough, or feel that the things I do aren’t big enough,  and instead I should be proud of what I am doing.  OK, so maybe I’m not going to cherish every minute of cleaning gum off the couch or wiping toothpaste off the bathroom floor…but hopefully I can at least change my outlook.  My day will come.  Once the kids are older hopefully I’ll have time to teach Sunday school or be active in ministry.  Maybe I’ll adopt a highway or volunteer at the humane society, but until then I can feel purposeful by washing dishes, helping with math, and drying tears. I always tell my kids that every job worth doing, is worth doing well – whether it’s making their bed or doing penmanship they should always do their very best, and the same goes for me. There is no such thing as a job too small.  Every mess, every school lesson, every errand – they are all worth my best effort.  I may not be out saving the world, but my life has purpose.  I am important and I do make a difference, every single day.

About jenna

Jenna has been an oilfield wife for over 12 years. Her Hot Oil Man husband started working in the oilfield a few months before they were married. The oilfield has lead them all the way from Northern CO to Alaska, where they've lived in the Matanuska Valley for 4 years. The family consists of their two children; a strong-willed daughter age 10, and a goofy son age 7. And of course what family would be complete without a couple of dogs and rabbits thrown in the mix. Jenna is a stay at home mom who doesn't “stay at home” much, and enjoys gardening, baking, reading, watching movies, four wheeling, hiking, fishing, and LOVES shopping. Since moving to the last frontier they have also started home schooling, which is another adventure all it’s own.

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