Bah Humbug, I’m the Christmas Grinch!

grinchI am such a Grinch this year.

I cannot seem to find my Christmas Spirit anywhere! I LOVE Christmas. Well, I usually do –  but this year I’m very indifferent. I’m feeling blah.  I feel like I’m just going through the motions for the sake of my kids. I usually start getting excited the week of Thanksgiving and it lasts until New Years. I love the holidays and all they entail – the decorating, baking, shopping, wrapping, parties, snow, lights, and of course the MUSIC. But none of those things are doing it for me this year. I can’t seem to get out of my funk.

We celebrate what we believe to be the true meaning of Christmas – which is the birth of Jesus Christ.  To us, Christmas is more than just buying as many presents as you can.  Although I am thinking about the birth of our Savior this year, I still can’t seem to get that Christmas-y feeling. I’m not unhappy, I’m just missing that holiday excitement.

We are having a bit of a “busy” season in life. We are in the middle of a big construction project on our house which has been monopolizing my time. Plus, I got summonsed for jury duty for the month of December, so either of those could easily be the reason for my holiday buzz-kill. Also, we don’t have any snow. It doesn’t quite have that magical feeling when it’s brown outside, does it? And we all passed around a cold, we had unexpected baby bunnies to deal with, and someone accessed our bank debit card and made a fraudulent purchase. All these events added to my stress… but when is the holiday season not busy and stressful? I mean, I can’t exactly blame my scrooge-like stupor completely on my circumstances. I need an attitude adjustment.

I haven’t even done Christmas cards yet, and I don’t know if I will. This would be the first year EVER that I do not send cards. Most years I have them ready to send the day after Thanksgiving including pictures, a newsletter, and stamped with that year’s cutest Christmas postage stamps.

I honestly don’t know if I’m just extra busy and stressed so I haven’t had the time to get excited yet, or if something else is at the root of my problem – but all I feel like doing is saying bah humbug.

I’ve done the shopping the baking and the wrapping. I’ve drank the eggnog. I trimmed the tree. I have sung the carols. I watched the Hallmark movies. I set up the nativity. All to no avail. I’m missing out on the magic of the season. I can’t find my spark. I’m still thankful, I’m still happy, I’m still enjoying my family… but I’m not feeling that thing. I’m missing that special magical feeling. I feel like I need my heart to grow three sizes like it does in Dr. Seuss’s ‘The Grinch’.

Does anyone have any suggestions on how I can find my Christmas Spirit? Or am I destined to be a grinch this season?

About jenna

Jenna has been an oilfield wife for over 12 years. Her Hot Oil Man husband started working in the oilfield a few months before they were married. The oilfield has lead them all the way from Northern CO to Alaska, where they've lived in the Matanuska Valley for 4 years. The family consists of their two children; a strong-willed daughter age 10, and a goofy son age 7. And of course what family would be complete without a couple of dogs and rabbits thrown in the mix. Jenna is a stay at home mom who doesn't “stay at home” much, and enjoys gardening, baking, reading, watching movies, four wheeling, hiking, fishing, and LOVES shopping. Since moving to the last frontier they have also started home schooling, which is another adventure all it’s own.

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