I believe that time goes by quicker and quicker as we get older. It seems impossible that I’ll be 37 next month. Didn’t I just graduate from high school? Wasn’t my 21st birthday last week? My husband and I have been together 15 years and married for almost 13. How can that be when I feel as though we’re both still in our twenties? Have I really been an Oilfield Wife for 13 years?! That’s over a decade! We’ve lived in Alaska for about 4 1/2 years. That also seems unfathomable. The clock just keeps on ticking. The days and weeks and years and decades go faster and faster. Spinning out of control.
Time is actually slipping away from me. Literally slipping through my fingers while I grasp at it.
I’ve been a mom for 10 years. Wait, that definitely can’t be right, wasn’t my daughter just born yesterday? I have a newborn baby girl… who is actually 10 years old. There’s no possible way she can be a middle-schooler next year. I feel like I hardly have any time left with her at home. Next is middle school. Then it will be high school – and boys and cars and sports and jobs – then off to college and an empty room in our home and an empty spot in my heart.
And my “little” boy who is almost 8 has suddenly transformed into a tall, gangly, toothless young man, where just yesterday there was a chubby baby. When did this happen? Did I blink? He’s becoming more and more independent everyday, and although I’m so very proud of him, I also miss him. I miss that bright-eyed toddler with the permanent goose egg on is his head.
And I don’t even want to get started on the wrinkled lady in the mirror. I do not know where she came from! I found my first gray hair recently, too. I don’t want to talk about it.
As the years fly by at the speed of light, I feel the need to reassess my priorities. I want to let go of some things that aren’t worthy of my precious time. The last 20 years have been a blur, and as I look back, only a few moments really stand out. Big events. Time with family. The major joys and pains.
If I made New Year’s resolutions, mine would be to slow down and enjoy my family every chance I get. To mindfully make myself appreciate them. Notice every day. Take a break from the hustle and bustle. I want more time at home and less time on the go. Each phase and stage of life passes so quickly that before you know it, it’s gone and you’re approaching 40.
Happy New Year to all of you! As this new year quickly ticks by, my wish for all of us is that we have a slow-paced, uneventful, and wonderful 2016.